The Maddening Spiral of an Unquiet Mind

There are times when I become so overwhelmed with desire that I want to drown - throw myself off a bridge and drown in the cold river. It's not enough for me to see my desire... I must possess it. Hold it close to me. But the, I smother it by accident. The obsession dies, and I am left feeling lost.

Who am I?

Have I ever known myself?

Do I know myself now?

I think I am a stranger I've yet to meet, and I'm terrified to introduce myself because what if what I find inside is as hideous as all my quiet parts? There is no way of knowing until I do. But that can wait for another day. I don't know where I'm going, or who I am. All I'm certain of is that I cannot afford to stand still any longer.

Denying life - hiding away in fear and calling it self-protection - does not make the world stop. It just leaves you behind.